awaiting;

2009-09-24T23:05:00.001+08:00

the original duo;
one down, one to go.

the subject has passed a phase,
let there be a new one
to experience.

goodbye, once-self.

P.S. still a part within.

2009-07-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

paralysing worry
attacks;

a paralysed choice

2009-06-28T02:10:00.001+08:00

these are my eyes, and you can see
worry

when fun and laughter meet with
putting-downs abruptly,
there's enough to cry.

2009-05-20T22:06:00.001+08:00

never settle for mediocre.

never again.

2009-05-11T23:20:00.001+08:00

let injustice
be the justice

to ensure that justice will be upheld.

2009-05-04T01:53:00.000+08:00

The rain keeps pouring from the sky
Somebody’s cry

Another day has filled my mind
Revitalize
Invite the lies

I wish I could look into those eyes
Expose the angels in disguise

Somebody’s cry
Disguise
Above their cries

The sun moves up into the sky
I see no bright
light

Moving time just keeps us blind
We just fly
By
Sleepless nights

I wish I could look into those eyes
Expose the angels in disguise

Somebody’s cry
Disguise
Above their cries
And lies

2009-05-02T23:38:00.001+08:00

you are what you eat, and you know what it is.

we are all humans, aren't we?

2009-04-05T14:48:00.002+08:00

some are so caught up with work,
they are told to live one day at a time.
one moment at a time.

the subject is so caught up with work,
he is made to live one day at a time.
one moment at a time.

2009-03-23T23:09:00.003+08:00

you get what you want,
though it's not what you need.
you want to succeed,
but it's the heart that bleeds.

slow down, slow down;
but the pain hurts.
speed up, speed up;
but you can't stop.

slow down, slow down.
why get to the "finish line".
mirage, mirage,
where is the journey.

2009-03-02T22:30:00.003+08:00

if you are in your own world,
you will never realise
what others actually think of you.

but this thought will not even
arise
since you do not even know that you are
entirely trapped in your own world.

when you are caught in your own world,
you end up being an 'obsessed' one,
or an 'extremist'.

there is a world larger than that of
yours.

please keep whatever you have in your world,
in your world.
stop trying to bring them into the
outer world, since
the outer world does not even care.

otherwise, you would simply be trying to impose your
image of your world, into the larger world.

and you do detest those who impose their views and opinions
on others,
yes?

2009-02-14T13:24:00.002+08:00

in an English test,
the subject spelt
"hippocrite" wrongly.

the subject still does.

you understood how the
subject felt.
but transformed it into self-pity.

well done,
a chorus of 'bravo!' shall rise.

2009-02-09T21:22:00.002+08:00

question yourself.
question your life.
"what's the point?"

then again, things have been done this way since a long way back.
why then, hasn't it changed?

because, the world has 'diversity', and catering to every single one would be tough.
that's why humans seek to put order to things.

but what happens if you are the neglected one?
the one stuck at the other end of the ideal continuum.

and what if, you find that your reasoning makes perfect sense and that the system should be altered?

then you take trouble upon yourself to fight for a change.
what a hassle.

then again, what's the point?

2009-02-05T22:35:00.002+08:00

when you're used to noise,
silence becomes unbearably
loud.

when you're used to dark,
light stitches your lids
shut.

when you're used to cold,
warmth melts you
entirely.

we choose not to
be used to these things.
we long, still, to
embrace their negative counterparts.

yet we surrender,
for we know resistance is
futile.

what for neglect oneself
with the embrace?

2009-01-29T22:32:00.002+08:00

anyway, things are already like that.
just make do and work your best of the current circumstance.

escapist.
just not as stupid as to "face fear in the eye" if the fear is larger than the subject.

2009-01-20T00:25:00.004+08:00

which is your favourite month of the year?

december - a time for silence, reflection, cold love. along tags a barrage of emotions and thoughts of how the future might go.

december - the only time when one gets to sit around in the cold of bed, to snuggle up and ponder.

with a smile which brings inner warmth and with a resting verve which would awake in time to come.

with times that have past zipping through the mind.

with the hovering assurance of one's location; one's presence at the end; just before the starting line.

feels like the only time in the year when the past, present and future ever align in an eclipse -- conjuring a spiralling magic in your heart.

2009-01-16T00:03:00.002+08:00

when one has learnt to take the blame.
or when one has taught oneself to take the blame.

it shows that

2009-01-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

apprehension attacks early,
then shrouds your lungs thereafter.

it makes your breaths feels slightly shallower throughout.

2009-01-01T20:47:00.002+08:00

doesn't it feel like two years has passed?

time is a subjective concept.

bad times move slow.
good times move fast.
neutral times move.

2009-01-01T00:29:00.003+08:00

every new beginning

masks some regrets.

2008-12-11T02:06:00.004+08:00

when your eyes pass gaze over something
and they settle midway;
almost involuntarily but intentionally;

you would admire.

then emptiness creeps in from the
edges of the frames
and closes in soon.
it then finds its way down
your gullet, windpipe,
through your lungs,
and into your heart, in a hazy,
fog-like fashion.

in the chambers of your heart it resides, and
swirls
into forms so complex.
would it be envy, jealousy, even hate, or just
emptiness?
or often, it finds itself in a confused mixture.

this substance adds yet another layer
over the walls of the chambers --
functioning either as
motivation
or just a silent, dormant testament
of incompleteness.

as the heart palpitates,
will this layer of urge
just
thin out, diminish, disintegrate?
as the heart palpitates,
will this layer of void
simply
eat away further at the lining?

question is: do we decide?

2008-12-05T02:12:00.001+08:00

non-conformist:

"I do not stray from conventions just because I want to be different. I simply do what I feel suits me."

2008-11-17T13:43:00.003+08:00

sometimes,
when the subject sits down and thinks about
life,
he gets lost in his dreams.

dreams of killings and murders,
and the multitudinous methods he would
utilise to extract as much pleasure
as possible
for himself.

in other words,
means which aid to inflict greatest sufferings
to victims
will be highly favoured.

The subject takes moments to enjoy
the lucidity of it all;
the tearing apart of whoever tries to
antagonise the subject,
or simply anyone the subject can't
tolerate.

When the reverie breaks,
the subject's senses begin to warm up
to the real situation.
By then, he would've missed
all naggings, curses, insults,
directed at him.
But he has effectively drawn out the essence:
hate towards the malevolent ones.

Time and again,
this happens over and over,
just like a cycle.

Until the time that this cycle
permeates through the dream-level into
reality;
when hate cannot no longer be contained within the fluffy
clouds of a dream;
the subject will have another unused method
in his arsenal
for dealing with the detestable ones.

N.B. Even dreaming about it makes the subject's heart race and palpitate with boiling excitement.

2008-10-31T01:17:00.003+08:00

'Envy'
is a word that must have been created by a person who was plain
jealous,
but still felt that he needed to keep his
ego
intact.

'Envy'
is a word that is used by people who are plain
jealous,
but still feel the need to keep their
egos
intact.

2008-10-28T19:42:00.002+08:00

you're a pessimist
no, i'm just down to earth.
this death sentence was passed long ago
since my birth.

you've got to change your views
nah, i've made the change.
chose this attribute of truesight
to help me keep my sane.

this real world's made of fake
all fake people that take
and don't give nothing in return
'cos 'it's all for my sake'.

hey, help me out a little
i've got a favour to ask
do me this simple job
i'll return you when you ask.

if i'm dumb enough to sacrifice
my time for you
this world would run upon
helpful people like you.

just to quell and kill
all your demons within
i'll bust your skull with my bare fists
all the way in.

2008-10-22T22:30:00.013+08:00

somewhere
in the dark dank drapes of the world
you'll watch me struggle and stay within,
remain in the cold.

i shun,
index finger on the trigger of my gun
for i can't
trust anyone
no faith in a 'Sun'.

the light's main enemy
proves to be worthy for me
the fast dancer on the wick
assassinated by a flick.

now
to find a way through the dangers of this dark
i need to find some trust in me
from the depths of my heart.

corroborated by the tries,
all experience that passed
i move on
headstrong
to escape from this fast.

zero questions
plain void of any emotions that rage
just toughness
from this bitter-cold
that chose me to plague.

2008-10-17T22:01:00.002+08:00

when you label someone selfish,

you are going to be viewed as someone selfish

by at least

one

person.

2008-10-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

all humans take delight in
seeing others worse
than
themselves.

it's intrinsic, instinctual.

even if having to see other people worse than
themselves
means pushing them down just to feel
lifted.

2008-10-05T16:51:00.001+08:00

Epiphone DR-200ceNA

2008-09-22T23:30:00.002+08:00

hear me.

listen.

2008-09-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

a sponge
takes up all the water and grime
then loses much water when squeezed
but remains partially tainted with tough dirt

a sponge
eventually wears out from all
the absorbing and scrubbing
and begins to tears and become
useless

will the ideal structure made from
toy bricks
be completed
before the sponge tears apart entirely?

2008-09-13T23:15:00.002+08:00

rule number 1

to resolve any issue, take it upon thyself.

2008-09-12T22:17:00.002+08:00

is the abnormal and persistent fear of

anxiety disorder

even though it is known that no imminent threat is
posed

may affect as many as 1.8% of people

lack of contact
traumatic experience
natural instinct

and that's just one that plagues the subject.

2008-09-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

mind
youthful (supposedly)
forlorn
err
april
residual
significant
damage
optimist
nocebo
opportunities
time
life
ephemeral
ambitions
vineyard
expand
overseas
perform
everyone
night
imagination (?) - [stop dreaming]
nerves
guts
shows
irate
now
try
how
end
indifferent
reluctance
discontent
eradicated
facade
emotional
normal
suppress
evade
solitude

2008-09-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause

pause? no pause.
the eternal question
which perpetuates through
time.

endure;
to endure or not to endure.

tolerate;
to tolerate or not to tolerate.

the inner tug-
of-
war.

the indecisiveness of man.
the helplessness
chewing from the interior.

pause; to pause or

not to pause.

2008-09-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

it has ended.

2008-09-07T17:22:00.001+08:00

totally converted.

to miss this chance would probably mean,
no more chances.

good luck,
and all the best.

same day, different lives
which will probably never cross paths.

2008-09-05T22:25:00.004+08:00

would you consider
the holding power of toy bricks
strong, sufficient, or weak?

over time, the bricks do get stuck together
more stiffly,
right?

or do they loosen --
maybe fall apart --
like mine?

in that case,
will it be the same after piecing the bricks
back together?

2008-08-25T23:18:00.005+08:00

the tumbling blocks.

tumbling down the hill.

tumble, tumble.

when the hallucinations set in, it gets hard to think straight.
when the sleep sets in, the mind is set free to roam.
when the mind travels through itself, strange things happen.

everything moves so fast, everyone speaks so fast, everything just tumbles
cramps;
swells;
bursts;
jams;
hums;
screeches;
blares.

and then the subject's awareness gets confused. his physical body experiences the symphonic, euphonious corruption of sounds, sights and thoughts.

then he speaks strange, thinks strange,
behaves strange.

2008-08-14T20:24:00.004+08:00

bell curve.

it's difficult;
for me that is.

4b) is pretty obvious;
for me that is.

2008-07-22T22:47:00.018+08:00

from page 2 of the subject's notebook:

"The amorphous clouds in the oriental painting billowed in from behind, bringing along with it a sense of torpid foreboding."

opening
dust-laden eyes
surveying the
familiar surroundings
which
morph unfamiliarly.

the horizontal line
which was once parallel to the steady
ground
tilted.
the bed followed,
then the subject
slid
down the gradient.

in the expected
drama
fashion:
blinking once or twice
to clean
the cornea.

but it wasn't
the eyes.
rolling around
for several moments
did not have to gather the
courage
to sit up.

the typical
dazed sitting,
then a reaching out
towards the knob.
the calves strong
enough to
support the
body mass.

twist, clear,
open.
first morning
sight.
clutching the
armchair
armchair.

then twist, clear,
open.
table.
twist, clear,
open (???).

relieve,
clouds and smoke
roll
in
(but not only from one direction).

grip, quickly,
the door
frame
on the
right, then the
door on the left.

sat,
thud on the
cold, tiles.

one scream,
await.

second scream,
await.

the subject
decides to
crawl
out of the
mess himself.

barely a step,
realised that the opening door would hit
the subject if the subject sat behind it (did she hear me?)

the final attempt --
a third scream which
expelled
all remnant
drafts
in the subject's
lungs.

topped with the replica
"COME!"

sent her rushing inside.

"Did you fall?"

The subject said,
"I sat down slowly,"
with all the pride he could manage.

2008-07-09T19:11:00.001+08:00

where
next?

cliffhanger,
without the

suspense.

2008-07-03T17:00:00.008+08:00

to return to birth-state,
sitting on the floor.
a silent emotional
bath,
as a form of release.

16:47.30 marked the end.

moving off
to the refrigerator
and picking up a heart-shaped sweet.
all this despite the tube
which was previously devoured;
needed it.

then the phone
rang.
the silence in this empty shell was
pierced.
so it was picked up,
a reply to the ring
so silent
only two could hear.

the breaking apart
relieved,
for the issue was placed on
the more
'sensible' or
the 'wiser'.

even without
direct presence,
the enclosure kept
sound-proof.

choosing not to backpaddle,
standing firm yet
utterly destroyed.

the 'cold wall' was
started by me,
but it continued feverishly with no
end in sight
by not
the initiator.

if the weaker species looked upon another
in pain,
why does it not penetrate the wall.

yet again,
it is highly possible that
hatred and self-pity
have ironically desensitised
one from her
own flesh and blood.

"If a picture is worth a thousand words, then a flow of tears can contain a million."

this silence shall persist.

2008-07-02T22:25:00.001+08:00

when three posts come
together into

this one.

this is the end of this post, or is it?

2008-07-02T18:42:00.002+08:00

talking to nobody for
the sake of talking to
somebody.

talking to nobody
and never knowing
who nobody
is.

seeking for something simple
yet
complex,
yet
never bearing to
ask for
it.

always to
minimize
the hassle
for
the somebody;
choose to take
it
upon
myself.

to open
to somebody
who feels not
the hassle or
burden -
nobody.

2008-07-02T18:25:00.001+08:00

when just one question can
incise
and
break it open.

maggots won't heal
this one.

2008-07-02T18:14:00.002+08:00

liquid product of a process of lacrimation

where exactly do they originate.

"humans are the only animal generally accepted to cry emotional tears."
false.

Basal,
Reflex,
psychic.

2008-06-30T20:32:00.001+08:00

everything is bound by rules.
even the most trivial matters.

everything is governed.
right?

2008-06-28T20:26:00.001+08:00

inexistent,

when 'emo' isn't just a style or a fashion statement. when 'emo' is not a trend.

when 'emo' is just a label for the feelings that reside within.

when it is, yet it's not.

2008-06-24T19:24:00.001+08:00

Lost

Groping in the dark,
I need a compass, torchlight;
And audacity.

The flickering ray,
Cutting through obscurity,
--Yet, void lies ahead.

Hesitant needle,
Spinning hastily; perplexed,
--Soon, points to my heart.

A step in the dark,
Afoot with a clear bosom,
The sound of silence.

Parting velvet gloom,
Like water before a sword.
A shiver within.

Torchlight, die on me,
The monsters shall fade forthwith;
-- Halt, I decide to cower.

not exception;
repetition.

2008-06-14T21:27:00.003+08:00

when it slowly constricts.
do the walls gradually swell.
when it acts against itself.

to end it's sufferings?

tightening; taut.
wheezing; wane.

when irregular puffs of air evacuate from within.
the periodicity causing a loss of rhythm.
the remaining packets build up to expel it all at one go.

but the constriction has a quota.
it only allows a bit.

the rest get tugged back. drawn back within. the body sucking it back in again.
then another.

another pressured push.
making its way through the gantry.

a hack or two.
in continuity.

until the reserve is all used up.
then forced to withdraw more.

to deposit more within.

to await,
the next series.

2008-06-03T15:09:00.001+08:00

that modicum of respect keeps me from ruining my life

or rather, it prevents me from making it worse.

that pinch of respect is being consumed,

so you better watch out.

2008-05-31T19:43:00.001+08:00

emptiness.

PsykedeliKonfusioN.

2008-05-26T23:27:00.001+08:00

the noise.

quiet.

simple.

to contemplate.

facade, picayune.

intrinsic, gargantuan.

simply to await the answers.

2008-05-09T22:59:00.001+08:00

Gray no petals no introduction gray matter for introspection
Water making and breaking seeming fine
Faith no martyr no resolution depth of water over our heads in
Breath restricted all suffocation... breath

A trippy absolute
Eye tripping disease
No resolution no auto save

Crave it matters no fixed solution
No path crossed aging desert
Scenic fixture and fixing... wonder why

Goal neglected greed for negation
Rights affected last stop salvation
World objective equalization

CHOICE DECISION NO REAL DIVISION BACK BURN SYSTEM

Scream for your life

Faith no martyr no resolution depth of water over our heads in
Breath restricted all suffocation... breath

A trippy absolute
Eye tripping disease
No resolution no auto save

2008-05-09T22:58:00.001+08:00

my life is

all

repetition.

2008-05-07T23:35:00.001+08:00

doe a deer a female deer.

when i fear everything and wish to die,
but i fear death? and wish not to die.

but.

when i choose to live the best.

2008-05-05T23:58:00.001+08:00

luck is a piece of

the world is built upon lies.

2008-05-02T20:18:00.001+08:00

35.5

2008-05-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

let me say things once.

got no time to repeat myself.

oh,

you

mean

2008-04-13T17:39:00.003+08:00

when you are so caught up by your own lies you think they make up your

reality.

but in sad actuality,

you are nothing.

the world needs not people who delude themselves,

much less people who make others believe in their delusions

just to corroborate

their beliefs.

2008-04-13T17:37:00.002+08:00

follow your pace?

if I had done that, I would have failed.

follow your pace?

if I had not chosen to comply then, you would have been left behind.

actually,

you have already been left behind.

2008-04-13T17:35:00.001+08:00

really?

when i decide to keep quiet,

and you start to realise the whisky on your crusty body.

you sting yourself.

2008-04-13T17:32:00.001+08:00

the art of being vague.

when done by an idiot,

makes the idiot look like an idiot.

2008-04-13T00:46:00.001+08:00

I

Am

The

Best.

2008-04-13T00:42:00.002+08:00

when everyone.

do not subscribe.

cannot be trusted.

to your criticism.

why bother.

humans have.

about what.

the intrinsic desire.

humans say.

to show.

when they.

who's best.

are this way.

why bother?

2008-04-12T00:39:00.003+08:00

battle.

each other.

lies.

reality.

but.

first.

cover.

under the rug.

who is there to challenge?

me.

wither.

hide.

shun.

choose not to be the one to shine.

when humility goes unrecognised,

humility is humility.

when the heart itches,

but the mind

kills the pulses.

2008-04-09T20:18:00.001+08:00

what is the boiling point

of your

brain?

2008-04-03T00:15:00.001+08:00

definition.
conflation.

dogs.
humans.

competition.
underhand.
upperhand.

2008-03-30T23:45:00.001+08:00

when people
shun away
from sophistication.

intricacies.

We can change the world tomorrow
This could be a better place
If you don't like what I'm sayin'
Then won't you slap my face.

the key is because
Ulgy xgr'u vgafdc dete utsvx ws

2008-03-29T13:17:00.002+08:00

when people tried their best.

and realised that their best was not

good enough.

people cried.

post from 29th March, 2008

2008-03-29T13:17:00.001+08:00

bX-h59pth

2008-03-29T12:36:00.001+08:00

careless

2008-03-26T23:49:00.002+08:00

"DEDICATED TO ALL MY CHILDREN OF THE
WORLD, THE HEALTHY, THE SICK AND THE DYING...
I LOVE YOU DEARLY, AND THIS ALBUM COULD NOT HAVE BEEN MADE WITHOUT YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
LOVE, MJ"

2008-03-24T21:17:00.001+08:00

when the fifty two paste boards tell me so

2008-03-24T19:21:00.002+08:00

when someone gets away free.
when that person is me.
when something is analogous
when someone is synonymous to a negative.

when that person sees not what he needs to see.

He who has (had? never had?) eyes saw the ugly sight.
Why did he not set those creatures right?

2008-03-23T17:04:00.001+08:00

when insects from the undergrowth rise.

for the sunlight.

vermin bite to

the
eyeball.

2008-03-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

life sucks when everyone thinks they're busy.

actually, I'm free.

let me do your work for you.

give and give and give.

never asking anything in return.

gaining immense satisfaction.

go on, faint.

or collapse.

or sleep.

no need for worry.

2008-03-18T21:13:00.001+08:00

merry christmas,

mr. lawrence.

wishing you all the best in your upcoming endeavours.
wishing you

a blessed year ahead.

2008-03-17T23:36:00.001+08:00

hey daddy it's an aeroplane.

yes. yes it is.

2008-03-16T21:15:00.001+08:00

when text makes you cry.

nose still partially blocked.

it may be a tradgedy.

but let us all remember, that in real life, tradgedies do happen.

let us not forget to cherish what we have now.

let us not forget to treasure everything.

let us remember.

remember.

2008-03-14T19:44:00.003+08:00

when the loop is eternal you cannot escape it.

you are intelligent enough to point out that "The world could not make itself; for that would imply a horrible contradiction, namely, that the world was before it was; for the cause must always be before its effect."

then why are you unable to see that you cannot quote from Isa 44:24 as substantiation as it is, in painful actuality, the product of the unknown you are searching for?

oh maybe you are not searching for the unknown in the first place. it is already settled. or maybe there is something wrong with human ego.

by the way, what created human ego? or, what let it blossom?

"I have made the earth, And created man on it. I; My hands; stretched out the heavens, And all their host I have commanded." ~ shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 1:1

why? how come you do not believe me?

let this passer-by prove it to you. hey, tell him why it's true.
because, from shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 1:1, it states, "I have made the earth, And created man on it. I; My hands; stretched out the heavens, And all their host I have commanded."

epiphany?

not quite.

2008-03-14T19:43:00.001+08:00

The Bible gives no option other than the fact that God is the creator! Read the creation account in Genesis 1 again. You cannot believe part of the Bible and then reject other, more confusing parts. I don’t know how or why He created the Earth the way that He did. I just know that He said it, I believe it; that settles it!

way to go.

2008-03-12T18:59:00.003+08:00

you probably say that because of your

Hi, if man hit,

it was time and you would then experience your

Fertile lane.

noted, with thanks, that you probably lack convolutions.

Maybe, he wanted to

God, sure-fire funny.

Shhh, if wise infatuated jet,

then you really are a sheep.

2008-03-12T18:55:00.002+08:00

again.

good you do realise.

you are probably representative of approximately one-third of the entire world population.

oh, maybe more.

2008-03-12T18:49:00.003+08:00

Romans 5:1
Therefore, being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.

James 2:17
Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.

"Ha! Jul! Hell"
was a mistake. and still is.

there is nothing in Jul.

2008-03-12T18:33:00.003+08:00

if you think otherwise.

do consider the following.

if a landscape was described to you, and you were asked to draw it out with no reference whatsoever, except the images you already have in your minds.

replica?

hmm, define "greater good" in your own words.

oh, forgot. you do the same too.

well, consider that things worsen for intangible, abstract ideas.

what then, makes you think that.

oh crap. you are lost in the wild. you are about to die. or just conk out.

saving grace. water. down the immense valley.

you can't move. maybe you broke your leg.

do pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.
pray.

hell, are you ever going to come out alive?

he is true in your hearts.
oh, yeah, maybe you did not pray hard enough.
maybe there still was a speck of skepticism in you.
maybe he was sleeping.
maybe it was time.
maybe he wanted you to find another way out.
maybe he simply wanted you to know that there was a river two point four kilometres to your right.

maybe, maybe he did not love you.
maybe you sinned too much.
maybe you were the one exception he forgot to cleanse.
oh.

maybe he does not exist.

and maybe you want to consider what you have not considered.

maybe you want to notice the setting in which you grew up in.

maybe you want to notice that you are a contradictory person.

maybe you want to realise that you are so because of it.

maybe you want to realise that you will die in the wilderness with reasons unknown.

maybe, only maybe's will ever surface.

maybe you want to realise that you are a dumb ass who cannot think for yourself.

maybe you want to question if all of it was created because humans feared.

maybe you wish to choose not to be so rigid.

maybe flexibility will remove your shackles.

maybe you want to realise that you have been taking in two opposing factions.

maybe you want to understand that you are violating morals.

maybe you want to STOP stepping into people's personal lives.

maybe you want to shut your gap up?

maybe you want to reflect upon yourself and see that you are a fool.

maybe you want to know that it may all be wrong.

maybe what you are reading is wrong.

maybe you are too recalcitrant.
maybe you are too dumb.
maybe you are too dumb to remove it.
maybe the cult just lives in you.
oh yes, it does.

does it not?

2008-03-12T18:27:00.001+08:00

this is when all the controversies kick in.

awaiting for the right time.

2008-03-12T13:49:00.002+08:00

Yes, flexibility.

dendrophilian flexibility.

are you him?

cannot believe it.

2008-03-12T13:36:00.001+08:00

Utilitarian Model Flexibility (UMF).

2008-03-11T19:27:00.002+08:00

Break it down. His argument is something to the effect that

- The bible says God exists.
- The bible is book.
- You based your belief on a book.
- There, you have to believe in God -- the conclusion of my book.

What's wrong with that?

Well, let's see if we can fill in the blanks with something to make it untrue. For example, would you agree with this statement?

- The book Star Wars says that Darth Vader is Luke Skywalker's father.
- The Star Wars book is a book.
- You based your belief on a book.
- Therefore, you have to believe that Darth Vader truly is Luke Skywalker's father.

Ah, I think I'm getting it.

The Fool goes on to explain that the study of logical fallices identifies a number of common, incorrect thought patterns.

Bar Rat #1 is guilty of an "invalid syllogism." (Remember this, it will come in handy in Book III....)

At other times in other arguments, Bar Rat #1 is guilty of:

Appeal to ignorance A logical fallacy in which lack of proof to the contrary is put forth as proof to the affirmative. "Absence of evidence is not evidence of absence."

Bar Rat would say:

"You have no evidence that God doesn't exist. Therefore, God exists."

But, by using the same faulty logic, one could argue:

"Life on other planets does not exists. Never, through thousands of years of research and study by the revered scientists, have we been able to produce a single shred of evidence to suggest that life exists outside of Earth. Not NASA. Not Einstein. No one."

It sounds pretty persuasive.

It's also unadulterated horse crap.

2008-03-11T18:53:00.004+08:00

there was a direct link to.
sent his son to cleanse our sins.
recreated connection.
forgiven.
eternal life.

communication. oral. absence of technology. vital information.
lost. lost. lost. lost. lost.

cannot answer. contradiction.

original language?
Hebrew.

propose a new style of thinking. when everything may be wrong. always be in doubt. always question.

we may be wrong.

what if.

Jerk on, army.
the simple science of getting what you want.

How can you not believe in God, man? I mean, what do you think happens when you die? Do you think you just cease to exist?

Yes. Yes I do. It's a sad unfortunate existential state of affairs but that's the reality.

That's pretty sad, man.

It's sad, but the fact is, you're basing your belief on a book you read. You don't actually know God exists.

Okay, well answer me a question.

Shoot.

Do you believe that George Washington was the first president?

Of course.

Uh huh, and how do you know this?

It's in every book I've read!

In books, huh?

But that's not the same!

Uh huh, whatever. Thank you for proving my point.

Cinderella's lovely fur footwear.
Turned to glass.

2008-03-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

silence approaching

2008-03-08T19:44:00.002+08:00

juxtaposition
orifice
render
gesticulate
beret
ubiquitous
subtlety
help
idiot
ingrate

now that my secret is out.
settle for something else

this amazing fact
tackles the wrong person.
he is not the one.

2008-03-06T22:53:00.002+08:00

yes. indeed.

time management is

vital.

we need to manage our time well.

learn to balance our commitments and our academics.

commitments + academics + surviving = a happy life.

left anything out?

umm, oh, do not forget to add in "meeting sworn sisters for celebrations"

but only if you have the time first.

music should create some slack for you. not to mention the 26 pieces.

and the fragile core.

2008-03-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

Held in young hands
The light is shivering.
I've come all this way
Wandering along the edges of time.
I came, searching still
Without even knowing your name, but
One little feeling
I only wanted to hand over to you
Sometimes I catch and hold
love and pain, tightly in my arms.
It will fade away, but
I will remember it... Always....
It has been echoing in my chest
For who knows how long.
Although it's a whisper tinier
Than a drop of the evening fog.
Towards the darkness of the frozen stars
A spinning prayer
May it reach your distant sky....

2008-03-03T23:23:00.001+08:00

cat
opium
nascent
tavern
rapist
anger
parole
asphyxiation
sucker
system
overt

2008-03-02T22:15:00.003+08:00

no. it is not ideal.

kindly leave.

yes it is.
no it's not.

cannot believe it.
hyperbole.

depreshun?
then you need counselling.

your blog is emo.
no it's not,
yes it is,
no it's not,
yes it is.

only the person who knows it

feels it.

don't listen to my friends anymore.
lost touch with my fifty four other friends.

it's over soon!

only one exclamation here.

2008-03-01T18:11:00.000+08:00

35 inches
89 centimetres

ideal.

2008-02-28T21:27:00.002+08:00

many times.

blank sheet.

when he leaped,
what was in his head?

heads on tables.

when the evil smirk.
what is in their heads?

smile.
smiling.

means
more than one thing.

five point five.
eccentric

depressed?

when the stick,
proved to be right.

to return to the location of judgement
soon.

no, the kid must not do it.
the parents do it on his behalf.

three times.
proved to be right.

challenge.

to exorcise the one

within.

my day is over,
but not theirs.

I wonder;
I haven't seen his ghastly face.

mutterings, ramblings?

when the thread is so thin only

the one who knows can manipulate.

2008-02-28T01:14:00.002+08:00

forgot to introduce my new friends.
what are their names.

inconspicuous. where are they.
how many?